...the end is near. Just finished reading Overqualified by Joey Comeau, and for whatever reason that sentence stuck with me. Wait, nevermind, it's pretty obvious why it stuck with me. It completely true. I'm an not living for today. And, although the command was never aimed at the reader, I am perhaps a retarded shit (maybe even most of the time) but then everyone has retarded shit moments. I suppose the style of the book got me thinking, and I felt an immediate pull to just spew all the thoughts out (to a source that almost no-one pays attention to, but I think therein lies the comfort).
I find myself wondering about other people, a lot. No one I know personally, just some person I happen to see, someone that catches my eye. I wonder who they are, and if they are interesting; I get vague urges to go up and make contact with them just for the hell of it. They are a mystery to me; a person catches my eye, I stare for a while, and then wonder.
I'm not a talented writer, nor do I have any skill in the craft of creative writing. I can barely string sentences together, but I have other skills to make up for it and get by. Despite that, I sometimes find myself making up characters. Little people that exist for a small time, exclusively in my head, before fading from existence. I guess I do this because I occasionally get lonely but don't want to seek anyone out to make it better (I feel like everyone does this at one time or another.), these imaginary people do help, but at the end of the day they are still fake.
Ever get the need to just go on endlessly? Well, that's what happened here. I don't think any of the feeling I've just expressed are exclusive to me, in fact I like to think everyone feels and does the things I've spoken of. It's reassuring for moments like this, when my brain is going a mile a minute.